Becoming a Writer: Sabotage or Success?
Because it’s hardly been two months since I rather abruptly decided to be a writer, I’ve been trying to drown myself in the thoughts of others that serve to remind me I shouldn’t lose hope.
Yes, what I’m doing is a bit crazy—irresponsible, even. But at this moment in my life, if I were to try anything else it would feel like self-sabotage.
Certainly I might be sabotaging myself anyway. But what is sabotage? Is it ruining your chances of professional or marital “success?”
Ruining your chances of feeling fulfilled?
Financial success, a happy marriage, and personal fulfillment aren’t mutually exclusive, of course. Yet achievement of those first two is empty without the third, while the third can exist just fine all on its own.
I am on a quest to feel fulfilled with the way I am and the way I spend my time.
Even if I find a career in which I’m financially successful, I will not be content if I don’t feel passion for the work. It will be a failure.
And relationships, those unsteady things? I could focus on finding a lover now or I could not, both options seem to have equal chances of either happiness or heartbreak.
So with the inherent risk of seeking solid ground using traditional paths, I’ve decided to trailblaze. It seems that no matter what I do, the odds of sabotage in some form or another are equally great.
So why not just do what feels right, right now?
I’m taking a risk of career failure and romantic sabotage because I need to feel like I am following a path that will make me happy if I stay independent of others.
There is no room for me to lie to myself: this can only be an inside job.
Only when I’m close can I bring in others for backup.
I need to know that I can do it on my own, and even if I fail, that I did it all on my own.
I want every step to be measured, every landing to be my own…
Even if I land in shit.
What do you think? Leave a comment!
(: just sprinkle some seeds in the shit beforehand so your footprints will leave behind flowers 🙂
Yesss! I should always carry a little satchel with me 🙂
14th Nov 2021. Honest! I am looking at this in Nov 2021. I have found your site today. There are many articles and as they are not dated I am going by the comment date and the normal WP principle that most recent posts are shown first, thus I am starting at page 10 and working backwards. The comment date appears to be in American format (month/day/year). Five years worth of posts, hmmm. It will be an interesting journey, seeing how your writing has developed from these initial posts. Especially as I have just viewed three films recently where you were a member of the cast and your travel book has been published. I have more than a passing interest in seeing ‘how you did it’. I have my own efforts and I have been encouraged by others to set these down and get them published. I know that they are not to my required standard and all will need significant improvement before they can and will see the light of day. So, rather like a detective in a mystery, I am embarking on a journey through your articles to see if you are the person I think you are. My only regret is that this is not the start of a book with the bound printed pages held in my hands.
In writing this I have imagined three different plots already! You will already have heard ‘write about what you know’ – beware as this is a bit like ‘Murphy’s Law of Holes’ . As with real life – something you are experiencing – it is ‘who the people are’ that makes a story (and life) and a journey interesting. For it to work in film, you need actors that ‘are believable’ , that will permit yourself to relax, suspend the fact that you have seen them in roles in films with similar plot lines and enjoy the story. Suffice it to say Merry Christmas for 2021! Ho Ho Ho Ho. Be safe, be well, be happy.
Now, on to the next article…..